Though I Feel Afraid
// May 30th, 2007 // 14 Comments » // General
It has been an absolute whirlwind month. In between the moments of blog silence I’ve been hard at work (home and office), squeezed in a few Cape Town trips (for business and pleasure), been attending a course on weekends (which I can highly recommend) and to top it all, I recently caught wind of a little medical hurdle.
Now I’m sure that some of you (all three of you) may wonder what that last bit is all about. As you can imagine I don’t want to draw too much attention to it, purely because I believe that it is just a minor setback, but what I can say is that there’s going to be quite a few tests in the next two weeks. I already had two done, one of which had my head hooked up to a bunch of of electrodes to record the electrical activity in the brain.
The test is medically known as an Electroencephalogram, pronounced Ä“-lek′trÅ-en-sef′ă-lÅ-gram or EEG for short.
While lying down on the bed, they placed electrodes to my scalp by way of some funky conductive paste which was in turn connected by wires to the EEG machine. A note on the paste – I think I finally found out what Rich..! and Don are using to get their hair to stick up like that.
During the session I was asked to keep my eyes closed while they were flashing me with a small strobe light. If I didn’t know better I would have thought I entered a rave or something. Then again, I am so used to flashing cameras on the red carpet so it never phased me in the least.
After all that, it turns out I do have activity in the brain ( 
to all my sceptics – I don’t have any screws loose), but it seems I have a little more activity than what is considered “normal”.
Interestingly at the time of being told to relax and breath normally, the words and music of an Ian White song came to mind. I found this quite appropriate and in many ways reassuring. This song always seems to stir my spirit and it gives me courage to answer the call of the Lord on my life, especially when things seem insurmountable.
Though I Feel Afraid
Though I feel afraid
Of territory unknown,
I know that I can say
That I do not stand alone.
For Jesus, You have promised
Your presence in my heart;
I cannot see the ending,
But it’s here that I must start.
And all I know is You have called me,
And that I will follow is all I can say.
I will go where You will send me,
And Your fire lights my way.
What lies across the waves
May cause my heart to fear;
Will I survive the day,
Must I leave what’s known and dear?
A ship that’s in the harbour
Is still and safe from harm,
But it was not built to be there,
It was made for wind and storm.
And all I know is You have called me,
And that I will follow is all I can say.
I will go where You will send me,
And Your fire lights my way.
We’ll see how things go in the next two weeks before I get to go back to the neurologist for some further tests. Not fun, but I’m keeping my eyes, spirit, heart and mind focused on the Lord.
